I'm feeling bitter because I was never taught about this economy. I don't have any experience with it and it's difficult to know how to start, because by it's nature it is ad-hoc and specialized. But this is where I am going to try to go.
Jobs are for suckers. Oh sure, there's dignity to work, and it's not a bad way to pay the rent in the short term, but if you look to your job to take care of you over the span of your life and your children's lives, you will never be free; you will work until you no longer can.
That thought terrifies me.
Every time I meet one of these people, who live outside of the daily grind, I feel simultaneously ashamed and jealous and bitter and indignant. But I try very hard not to be angry at them, because instead I need to learn from them.
Swallowing my pride is very hard, but hopefully I can be honest with myself, at least. I am not currently where I want to be, and I should start learning what I need to do to get there.