I wanted to write it down here, for the record as it were, that I am remarkably happy these days.
I want to embellish that statement. I've never really thought of myself as a happy person. I think temperamentally I'm on the sadder side. But when I take my internal temperature these days, it comes back much happier than I might expect. Than I'm used to.
A lot of is definitely the fault of the person I spend most of my non-working time with. ( <3 )
I think there are other factors too. I'm regaining a lot of the confidence that I possessed when I entered Caltech. Almost all of my deep doubts have vanished. I mostly know who I am, and I'm reasonably happy with that person.
I have to get back to work now (ha!) but I expect that some more deep thinking will show up in the near future.